So, in case anyone who cares hasn't noticed, I'm not really using this site anymore. If you actually care to know where I've been hiding out for the past two and a half months, just check out my other site, which I actually use and update, at...

www.xanga.com/goodthingscometothosewhowait

I'm not entirely sure of my reason for the change of pace, but at least the name of my blog makes a bit more sense. Afterall, who really wants a blog that makes it look like you're the opposite gender? I know I don't.

Toodles!

I think I'm having an issue. It's kind of creepy actually. I keep seeing people around campus and thinking that they're people I know from my past. But the thing is that they're really obscure people who I haven't thought of in who knows how long. There's still this one guy, who's face keeps fading in and out of my mind and who I thought I saw today, that I still can't place. But I distinctly remember him. -shroog- Maybe I'm just going insane or having some personal crisis that I'm unaware of. Or maybe it's some sort of sign slash coincidence thing. I don't know. All I know is that it's starting to get to me.

I totally started my creative writing class today, and I can tell it's going to be an amazingly sweet class already. We actually had a bit of random word fun today. We were supposed to look into our past, because apparently that's essentially what poetry focuses on, and pick a memory to ponder. Then we were basically suppose to list slash write down the events that surrounded that memory. Of course, me being the way I am and essentially trying to get ahead and put it into some sort of poetic form, just wrote random lines that somewhat describe the incident I chose. Now, don't ask me why I chose this particular circumstance. In fact, don't even ask me why I still remember this because it's completely random and appears to have fairly no significance in my life. Nonetheless, I wrote it, and you, my sadly unfortunate audience, have the amazing ability to look into the crazy messed up world of Alisia. So... here's what I came up with...

Loneliness

Wandering about

Kids playing, laughing

Running and whirling about

Pain

It hurts to walk

Sit down

Kids playing

They don’t notice

Get up

Pain

Limp a little

Pain

Sit down

My foot hurts

Nothing noticeable

Kids still playing

Get up

Still pain

Take off the shoe

No pain

Kids laughing

They run past

Examine the shoe

Nothing inside

Ah, but underneath

Tack

Right through the shoe

No wonder there was pain

No one noticed

No one notices

Remove the tack

Put the shoe on

Begin to walk

Memory of the pain

But it’s no longer there

Not really

But I still remember

And no one notices

Wander off again

Loneliness

-yours truly

I've decided that I have a major problem. Perhaps I should've just gone to that all-girls school down in Georgia. I certainly wouldn't be in this pickle if I had. -sighs- Slowly and slowly I'm beginning to once again hate myself. Where does one draw the line between personality that can't be changed and traits that can be altered? I wish I had an answer. Better yet, I wish I had never had such problems.

I'm a strange creature indeed. I used to think of bad situations that I wouldn't mind getting into, that I knew I could handle. But the thing is that I never thought of all these situations that are now vexing me. Perhaps that just goes to show that I can't handle them. What a sad and pathetic way to end the day.

I'm really not happy, am I? Why is that? Why do I keep spinning around in this circle of mine? Can't anyone show me the way out? Or am I simply not listening? I'm sure it's the latter. I don't like to listen. That was always the section I scored lowest on when we would do those little Standardized Achievement Tests back in middle school. I think they've been right all along. But, silly me, I refused to listen. Who would have guessed.

Well... here's to wishing tomorrow is just a little brighter.

What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)
created by TimesRChngn06

Your Results:
Brown
You have brown eyes. Brown is the color of the earth. Your eyes symbolize your comforting and fostering nature. You are stable, grounding, sophisticated, considerate, conventional and orderly. People may consider you to be cozy or warm. People feel safe when they are with you. Some words to describe you: reliability, elegance, security, healing, homely, grounding, foundation, and earthly.

http://quiz.myyearbook.com/zenhex/quiz.php?id=8445

Wow... my eyes are actually changing shades of blue, either depending on my mood or what I'm wearing. Nonetheless, I like their evaluation of me.